WHY ?
Why making films? Being a director? working in cinema?
Everysingle film-maker, director, ask himself, herself, the question,
doubt at least once...
The next reflexion comes from a personnal experience, and don't have to
be take as generality, but can, maybe, help those who doubted ans still do...
I did it, i asked myself this question, fatale, maybe, it had to happen one day,
and it did...
Why?
This three letters word, will put my brain up and down, to provoque a naîve desillusion...
i had to face my dreams and illusion to the truth and reality...
was victim, of the "complex of Fake", explain then.
Weeks after, i simply realised that i asked myself answers i'll may only get later, one future day,
and had to first anwser others, and say goodbye to a auto-psycho-analyse, going trough the perseptions
of reality and imagination, the truth and illusion..
the true ones where :
What using film and cinema for ?
for what good reason and goals ?
It's so important to not idealise what's simply a support,
as a page, a web, a rock, an instrument of expression,
nothing more, nothing less...
This is a first proove of maturity i've ever had,
concerning cinema.
Then, the research of a thrid answer to the queston:
how will to use it ?
If we really think about it, what does Welles, Van Trier,
Trantino, Depalma the one they are, or used to be ?
This greatest director found their personnal way of doing,
their form, themes and languages.
Nedd to start a first true work about film making and what
compose it, to get my alphabet trough screenplay, light,
camera, acting, montage etc... to make it mine.
Feel awake from a dream...